"There are places I'll remember"Our New Year's Eve worship services used to extend until midnight, but post-covid, the service starts and ends early. As I was instructed and guided to pray for and through certain topics, I asked God for this year's resolution. This song popped into my head, In My Life by The Beatles Here Comes the Sun is my favorite Beatles song, so it's odd for me to gravitate to this song. I don't even know when I first heard In My Life. I'm pretty sure it popped into my head a random day in July before I changed jobs. Hahaha until 20 minutes ago, I thought the lyric was, "there are faces I remember..." Last year's resolution was to neutralize my toxicity, and I think it was a success. God is good! New phone, new job, new car(s), new furniture, new coworkers, new bosses... everything is new. I just need a new house! 2023 was a year of blessings upon blessings. I am grateful for all of the changes and the experiences I left behind. I think this year, I want to let go of people, trauma, and possessions. My room is an utter mess, and it's been a mess since April 2023. I want to throw boxes away and donate most of my clothes, but I have also lost a lot of inches and about 10lbs since August. I can justify keeping anything. I noticed that I have extremely unhealthy attachment styles; I am either deeply and utterly obsessed or completely dismissive. Letting go of people might be easy. I asked most of my new coworkers for timelines and expiration dates because they all have plans to pursue their careers in medicine and education, yet I still pray most often that God protects my heart from falling in love with the wrong one. Going into 2024, I'm still healing, like I don't feel inclined to ghost love-interests or coworkers any more: Less toxic? Yes. Non-toxic? Maybe. Edible... Maybe not. Nutritious? Absolutely not. This time last year, I was confined to my bed and unable to work until the new year. This year, I have the ability to prepare for next year. Just like this song, for 2024, I am going to focus on my trajectory. I was launched into a new environment, under new circumstances, with new people. I will remember where I was, watch where I am going, and wait to see where I land. Comments are closed.
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